memory fails my name

memory fails my name this is the sound of memory failing me immortality riven from my soul kiss my eyes i lay to sleep risen never again traded my life for one more chance to be you guardian this night and hold your fears at bay corporeal no longer now i am the dreaming monster soon i lay for the last time i take this time to say the things i needed to share this is the sound of the sand running out from within my hand spilling to the ground with every second wasted waiting for the last night of this this miserable life i am now done with this shit time has expired so much like my desire i can get no higher and so i shall crash into the floor and then my world is so much an open door life's secrets laid bare the pain is all explained there my life is meaningless to the outside inside its weight to much no one should bear the thought of it so many secrets here i look to the sky and wonder if mother will shed her tears when i die send her rain wash away the mistakes the pain my name