a final prayer (or) moments in depair.

a final prayer (or) moments in depair. as the day light breaks over me i know i am doomed till now ive lived my life for myself its been my way for an eternity i cant believe i lost this way forever seemed so short, when the nights are all i see i lost count of the meals i consumed the nights of passionate blood lust deepened shadows claimed her again but that was before today the last time i care now the world once again has meaning how can i live on this way fooled again to believe i had loved you taken back to the nights shadow i am hollow and broken up inside your soul you were never real to me you were a shadow soul of the one that got away and as i cry the blood tears fall from my eye i am so done unwilling to be in the absence of thee i know i cant ever find you I'm so sick of seeking so much pain the passing Millenniums bring i cant remember the last time i was free of the pain of you and me this is it the moments between the pain and the sin the pain and the blame of a life with no shame you couldn't be mine and i couldn't be contained so much free to read and be seen all that mattered was your heartbeat in rhythm with mine but now all these years gone by i understand every passing moment is another moment i get away from you so now as i lay me down to sleep i pray oblivion draw me deep if i should once more wake i pray my life you take ill never make it on this life